Raquel Leviss is sharing her take on “Scandoval.”
The truth celebrity, 28, opened regarding her event with her “Vanderpump Rules” co-star Tom Sandoval and also its after-effects that made headings previously this year.
“The concept of an affair hits home, hits really hard to a lot of people,” Leviss informed Bethenny Frankel on her iHeart Radio’s “Just B with Bethenny Frankel” podcast onWednesday “So I think there was a lot of projection happening, a lot of emotions that came up for people. And unfortunately, I was the punching bag for a lot of that.”
Leviss likewise recognized “the hurt” she “brought to a lot of people.”
“I was not careful in my actions and I was not thinking long term,” she stated. “I was completely wrapped up in heartbreak and wanting to get certain needs met. Looking back now, I can see that I was still healing from a relationship from somebody who I thought I was going to marry. And ending that, I still haven’t healed yet.”
In Season 10 of “Vanderpump Rules,” long time companions Tom Sandoval and also Ariana Madix disclosed they were separating. Not long after, reports emerged that Sandoval had actually ripped off on Madix withLeviss
The after effects from the disloyalty rumor was remarkable, with the after-effects playing out in an eruptive three-part get-together.
In April, Leviss looked into a center for psychological wellness therapy.
She opened to Frankel regarding exactly how her time in treatment altered her overview– including her choice to start describing herself by her birth name, Rachel, as opposed to Raquel.
“So I changed my name to Raquel in first grade,” she clarified. “There were a few other Rachels in my class and I wanted to be special. I also feel like deep down, I wasn’t comfortable in my own skin. I wanted to be somebody better in my eyes. And so Raquel was a way for me to kind of be that person.”
She shared that in treatment, she was asked to compose her name on a white boards, and also she composedRachel
“(My therapist) was like, ‘Interesting. I see you as Rachel to your core. You’re going by Raquel, which is OK, but it’s not true to who you are. It’s a wall you have up,’” Leviss remembered.
“I feel like most of my life, I’ve been afraid, I’ve struggled with social anxiety, I’ve struggled with judgment for other people. So having a fear of vulnerability makes sense,” she proceeded. “So I’m really just trying to come back to my roots, and I’m introducing myself as Rachel.”
Frankel likewise asked Leviss exactly how she really felt around Madix being repainted as “America’s sweetheart” and also getting recommendation bargains and also making talk program looks following the disloyalty rumor.
““Part of me says, good for you, because take advantage of these opportunities while they come your way,” Leviss stated. “But it is hurtful to me just to think that — my nature is very kind and forgiving and understanding of other people, so the concept of me being the ultimate reality TV villain just blows my mind. And the way that she spoke to me at the reunion, I feel like it was uncalled for.”